COLORLESS TSUKURU TAZAKI AND HIS YEARS OF PILGRIMAGE

AUTHOR – HARUKI MURAKAMI

PUBLISHED ON – 2013

PAGES – 386

SPOILERS AHEAD.

Tsukuru had a close knit group of friends with names representing colors : Aka (Red), Ao (Blue), Shiro (White) and Kuro (Black), while he himself remained colorless. The story follows a now 36 year old Tsukuru who is haunted by his past where he was banished from his group 16 years ago without any reason. He discovers that regardless of the flow of time, he is still stuck with the past. The group was made up of the people who relied on each other for comfort and belongingness. Unable to live his life fully focused and committed, he ventures out to locate where his old friends were and to find the reason for his banishment.

Good, right? I liked it. Who hasn’t had that sort of experience before? Yearning for closure. Well, it might not be as bad as Tsukuru had to undergo but we all are aware of this feeling. Getting detached from people, especially friends, whom you thought to be your entire life. But that happens. It is as inevitable as the tides during a full moon. To live with it is part of what is living perhaps.

Jealousy was not a place he was forced into by someone else, but a jail in which the inmate entered voluntarily, locked the door, and threw away the key.

One heart is not connected to another through harmony alone. They are, instead, linked deeply through their wounds. Pain linked to pain, fragility to fragility. There is no silence without a cry of grief, no forgiveness without bloodshed, no acceptance without a passage through acute loss. That is what lies at the root of true harmony.

Yet it was this pain, and this sense of being choked, that he needed. It was exactly what he had to acknowledge, what he had to confront.

This last one hits home. You need to acknowledge pain to get better. Like John Green said, Pain demands to be felt. You cannot fix something if you don’t acknowledge of it’s breakage first. And quite often, that’s the hardest thing. We are so busy with our lives that we pile on the breakages until we reach a breaking point.

I don’t know why this part is my favourite but it is. There is something in the tranquility that screams attention.

A lot of people weren’t happy with the book because it lack the usual “Murakami” wilderness and magic. It had it’s fair share of weird dreams and people with six fingers chopping up the extras and carrying it in trains. But to most people, the book came across as a bit too normal. To that, my argument would just be this quote from one of my favourite series:

Like I had hoped, Good omens series was perfect. Micheal Sheen was a wonderful actor for portrayal of Aziraphale. A couple of months ago, I came across this beautiful movie called The Assistant (2019). It’s not everyone’s cup of tea but it sure was fascinating for me. Just another normal movie. Oh, and I received this lovely present for my birthday!

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